Eden Parker's Page

Eden, my heart is breaking with you. I am not sure of circumstance, but your pleading sounds just like mine. And yes! things are worse at night. I have been taking sleeping pills, because I just can't deal with things as they flood in. I am now convicted to try to bring them in prayer and allow the Holy Spirit to put me to sleep. We have such financial strain, and top of that, we had our gas turned off, so no heat for 3 days (in CT). We pulled the money together and were able to pay the past due and get it turned on. I was so mad at God, and felt betrayed. Just as I apologized, I realized out furnace is leaking (not gas) and we will need a new one. We have no money, and I just went to part-time working so I can be a better mom to my 4 boys. My husband is unsaved and causes an uphill battle everyday as I raise my boys to be men of God. He does not share my faith and gets mad at my peace. I am giving into my anger more and more, and I am so upset that I have let myself go to that dark place again. I feel the hand of God, but it feels like he has forgotten about me sometimes. I have taken every step in faith and feel like I hit a brick wall. So please know that I will be praying for you...it's so much easier to pray for someone else than for yourself sometimes. God Bless you.

Penny